Well that's what you signed up for!!!

" Well that's what you signed up for"


Dawn you don't seem like yourself lately you are so quiet and withdrawn. Anything wrong? If I tell you what's wrong consider yourself lucky. When I tell you my husband is leaving for 7 months and I'm stressed out and I have alot going on in my life right now the last thing I need to hear is "well that's what you signed up for". Really that's what you are going to say to me. This is why I don't talk to people. This is why I come off as a bitch sometimes. Why I don't do small talk cause I can't relate to most of you. Cause we are not on the same wave length.

"Well that's what you signed up for" That statement is 100% accurate!! I did sign up for this. You say that sentence to me like I'm supposed to have some switch in the back of my head that I turn on to robot status. That I take out my heart and replace it with a cold black iron heart. So what you are basically saying to me is suck it up. I think most of you don't even realize you have offended me. You have!! I'm not allowed to feel? It rolls of your tongue like nothing. Ya that really sucks Dawn but "that's what you signed up for" the bitch in me wants to yell you to go fuck yourself then bitch slap you. How about that really sucks Dawn I am here for you if you want to talk or go out for a coffee sometime. Compassion have you heard of it? I just walk away more annoyed then ever.


"Well that's what you signed up for"
When you see me and I smile and you and say good morning and I smile back and you ask how are you? I will always say great. Well I'm not great! I'm fucking sad and depressed and so tired. The first month he leaves I'm a complete wreck. I'm transforming into a new me. The strong independent one. The partner I had in life who did have half the responsibilities is now gone. It's all on me now. It's adjustment time for me. I'm overwhelmed, sad, lonely, sometimes I have panic attacks. I cry myself to sleep most nights. I'm scared of the unknown. Then I have a dog that lays by the door for days crying waiting for her best friend to come home. Sometimes I get so tired of luring her back to bed with treats so I can get a few hours sleep, I just grab a pillow and lay on the floor with her by the door and comfort her the best I can. Then I get up try to plaster a permanent smile on my face for the day and act happy. When inside all I want to do is cry. This isn't my first rodeo I do get into a new routine and start to adjust. I have good weeks and I have bad ones. Please be patient and try to understand I'm quiet for a reason I'm trying to get through the days as best I can. I'm not looking for sympathy or a hug I'm looking for understanding and smooch of compassion. So please think before you say that dreaded one liner to me. I'm human with emotions and extremely proud that this is what I signed up for.